ADVENTURES IN CLOTH DIAPERING.

When I call Hannah to check in, she tells me Further has pooped all over her, all over the couch, all over the bed, all over the floor––she's laughing while she tells me this, thankfully––and that she has started taking pictures because she doesn't know what else to do. (Don't worry, we'll spare you those photos). This was our first week cloth diapering and first week trying Elimination Communication. And it was a doozy.For the uninitiated, Elimination Communication, or EC, is a form of potty training. Babies often give clues as to when they're going to pee or poop––wiggling, stiffening up, it's different for every baby. And if you can learn to identify these clues you can habituate your baby to a sound (the hissing sound of peeing, for instance), and they will learn to identify that sound with going to the bathroom. Eventually, they will begin to hold it until you give them a place to go and the trigger sound. The end goal is that your infant will be able to use the toilet (with your help of course) and use less diapers. It makes sense when you really think about it - babies don't want to poop and pee inside their diapers. This is why they wriggle and squirm. But we train them to basically sit in their own waste, and then when they are older, we suddenly try to train them NOT to go in their diapers. Elimination Communication is a natural way of skipping that whole process and letting the baby communicate his needs with you from the beginning.But it's ambitious and it takes a lot of work. We've really only successfully got him to go in his little bucket twice. And once in the bath, but I'm not sure that counts. His favorite thing (besides staring at the ceiling) is to pee as soon as you put the diaper back on, which is lots of fun when you are having to hand wash them all. That is the point of the cloth diapers, though––so that you can tell as soon as he goes, and to encourage you to keep trying EC so as not to have to constantly wash diapers. Even still, it's a challenge.We're staying positive, though. Disposable diapers are just too wasteful for us, and EC just makes too much sense. It's a very old, very tried and true practice and one we're going to try and conquer. By God.- Jesse.

MESSY MONDAYS.

A couple weeks ago I wrote a post called "The Case for the Imperfect Homestead" in which I talked about how it is to look through the photos of certain books, or magazines, or websites and not feel inadequate as a farmer––to feel like your farm is hideous by comparison. Well, as one of our astute readers pointed out in the comments of that post: these farms I label as perfect are themselves imperfect––they, like us, just do not share the photos proving it. Touché––it's not like we share the mess either, the dirt, the unfinished projects, or the five-gallon buckets that pepper our yard like lawn ornaments. To know our farm through our blog, is to see a very curated version of our lives. In turn, we may create the same feeling of inadequacy in our readers that those other farms do in us. Which is the opposite of our goals with this blog.So with respect to that, we've decided to occasionally start sharing photos we wouldn't normally share––photos that will show the world we are perfectly human––photos "without makeup" so to speak. We want people to come here and be inspired. And if nothing else, we want people to come here and see that sometimes it's okay to be an utterly mediocre homesteader. So here's to Messy Mondays, where we'll give you the picture we would normally show, and then the unedited version.So here's a picture of the cabin:And here's the reality:

TWO YEARS IN.

Good grief, has it really been that long? If you would have told me two years ago that we'd still be without electricity or running water going into 2015, I probably wouldn't have believed you. And yet, here were are. But you know what? It's not really that bad. In fact, at this point, it seems pretty, well, normal.Water. We're going to solve the water situation by the end of the year, by God. Hopefully by summer. Although it's not the worst chore, hauling all of our water every week is definitely a burden in the busy season. Electricity, though. Hm. I guess we could use it, but for almost half the year we spend the majority of our time outside and literally don't need it. We're so tired by the time the sun goes down that we just go right to bed anyway, and wake up when the sun returns. With enough electricity coming from our cars and new solar charger (thanks, Toni-Ann!) to charge our devices, I barely think about getting electricity in the house. In fact, our mentors went ten years without electricity in their cabin––we've got nothing to complain about there.If I've learned anything in these last couple years of living like this, though, it's that you can live with a lot less than you think you can, and live a good life. You can still keep your blog. You can still stay clean. You can still be happy. Very. What changes is how you look at the world. You hear that the average american uses 100 gallons of water a day, and you think "on what?!" You hear someone use the term "Without electricity or running water" as an euphemism for impoverishment and, though it can definitely represent that, you know it's no barometer for wealth. We live without these things and we hardly feel poor. Honestly, it's empowering. It's freedom. You learn to live off the land. You learn to waste less and wear sweaters in the house to conserve firewood. I delight in the fact that living with little has forced me to live my life around nature––sunlight, seasons and weather––instead of, I guess, around myself. And that feels great.So yes, two years in and we still have no electricity or running water. But more importantly, two years in and we're still perfectly happy. Sure we bathe in a creek. We read by candlelight. We drink water from the earth. We poop in a bucket. But you know, if it never changed I don't know if we'd notice. If the world around us suddenly disappeared, Hannah and I wouldn't have any immediate idea. We might wonder where our NPR went, but other than that, we'd just get up and go to work, happy as always.- Jesse.

HOW FARMING PREPARED ME FOR PARENTHOOD SO FAR.

Five or ten years ago, I don't think I would have been able to catch my own baby. Or cut the umbilical chord. Or comfortably watch my wife labor for three days. Maybe, but I used to be squeamish. Who isn't when it comes to birth? Our culture pounds it into us that birth is messy and gross (when in fact it is messy and incredible), so what boy who goes through the school system I went through––through the movies and television shows––wouldn't be intimidated?But since moving to Bugtussle, I've helped with births, in cows and sheep and cats. I've dealt with blood. I've grown confidence in the way we were built––that Hannah was built to have a baby, and I was built with hands to catch it.And then came the first weeks of life.Farming is about as full time of a job as they come. It's early in the morning until late at night and sometimes, when a chicken's attacked, when a rogue storm comes through and threatens to destroy your young transplants, or when your neighbor offers you a few bottle pigs, it's the middle of the night, too.The farmer can guide the farm one way or another, but ultimately the farmer's job is to react to the farm's moods. Because every day is dictated by the farm, not the farmer. It's a job of patience, and hard work and delayed pleasure.And this is all part of why I feel this transition into parenthood has been relatively smooth so far. Of course, our baby isn't crawling yet. Or talking. It looks around a little which, so far as I can tell, is pretty harmless. But the actual activity of taking care of this new, wonderful creature has seemed––well, in a word––normal.We're used to taking care of things, making sure they are fed and well-sheltered. We're used to long days and a lack of sleep. Our strength helps us to rock him for hours. And we're definitely used to longterm projects that take weeks and sometimes years to develop––to become self-sustaining. Of course, we're in for things no farm, no life, can prepare us for––disciplining, schooling, dating––but I still feel we'll be able to draw on our education as farmers to make the best decisions as parents. Because what is a farmer really, if not a parent to one giant, constantly moving baby, full of energy and bursting with potential?- Jesse.